Heidy's Fake LJ

heidysfakelj @ 2006-11-28T15:18:00

2006-11-28T19:18:13Z

ohmygaaaaaaaawd i haven't used lj in soooooo long
i kind of forgot i even had it hahahaha

so i am currently in ryan/alex's room
and they're both sleeping
creepy? i would say so
oookay and alex's music just went off and scared the crap out of me
and it seems to have had little or no effect on him waking up for class
thus i must intervene because WE'RE LATE.

heidysfakelj @ 2006-09-02T12:23:00

2006-09-02T16:27:12Z

I never thought the end of this summer would be so bittersweet......
I'm going to miss work and my co-workers. thanks for the awesome last day you guys =)

I HATE double packing >=(

heidysfakelj @ 2006-09-02T02:15:00

2006-09-02T06:16:44Z

lesson learned today: painting a room by yourself takes A WHOLE DAY.....at least.

a million little pieces

2006-08-15T00:40:55Z

I am alone. Alone here and alone in the world. Alone in my heart and alone in my mind. Alone everywhere, all the time, for as long as I can remember. Alone with my Family, alone with my friends, alone in a Room full of People. Alone when I wake, alone through each awful day, alone when I finally meet the blackness. I am alone in my horror. Alone in my horror.
I don't want to be alone. I have never wanted to be alone. I fucking hate it. I hate that I have no one to talk to, I hate that I have no one to call, I hate that I have no one to hold my hand, hug me, tell me everything is going to be all right. I hate that I have no one to share my hopes and my dreams with, I hate that I no longer have any hopes or dreams, I hate that I have no one to tell me to hold on, that I can find them again. I hate that when I scream, and I scream bloody murder, that I am screaming into emptiness. I hate that there is no one to hear my scream and that there is no one to help me learn how to stop screaming.

heidysfakelj @ 2006-05-29T01:52:00

2006-05-29T05:42:29Z

even if I could, I wouldn't change a THING about prom
it was amazing to say the least
much ♥ to everybody for making prom memorable
oh memory, don't fail me now cause I need this imprinted in my mind forever

an ottawa and prom post later when I have more time

okay fine maybe I would've made it longer...
freeze time or something, ya know :D

heidysfakelj @ 2006-04-19T00:29:00

2006-04-19T04:42:25Z

thursday says:
YOUR FACE
heidyyy says:
YOUR MOM
thursday says:
YOU FART ATP
heidyyy says:
yeah well you absorb methane!
thursday says:
YEAH WELL YOUR MITOCHONDRIA GOT STUCK IN THE ENDOPLASMIC RETICULUM
HAHAHAHA thank you william chooooooooooo for being so silly

I love laughter therapy
thanks w.chiu, s.yim, w.wong, a.chong, a.duong, a.lin, k.gates, j.yu, e.cho, b.yue, f.chiu, k.huynh for ALLLL the big laughs I had today ♥ you all :)

heidysfakelj @ 2006-04-05T18:42:00

2006-04-05T22:55:20Z

let's rewind back to september of 2005.
I miss how everything used to be...............

heidysfakelj @ 2006-04-04T22:04:00

2006-04-05T02:11:07Z

♥ iris, kelly, bador, aaron, sara.

most random day of my life

2006-03-31T05:33:26Z

soooooooooooooooooooooo....

today was calc, bio, physics, spare day
fullyyyy couldn't stay awake in calc today and today was the day she decided to pick on me and stare at me all class ANDDDDDDDDDD randomly we got like the last 20 minutes to do hw! IT'S SO FREAKY. in bio darby kept saying we had a lot to cover and we had a lot to do to catch up to the other class except the boys are so mean and asked him so many questions about giving birth hahaha. lunch was cram for physics uggghhhh. physics was faaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaail my test =/. spare was libaray with people. I can't even remember one thing we talked about but I do remember that we were laughing the entire time which I must say is great therapy. I love love looooooove moments where you can look back and not remember one single thing said but you do recall how hard you laughed. after school was auto club EXCEPT I peeked in and nobody was there so I went to the commons and hung out with people. peeked into auto again and there was STILL nobody so went to the gym to watch cynthia play. felt....yeah so I left. sat outside with jess wu and samantha chow which is sooo random but so cool cause I totally miss them. went for snack with my mom and OMGGGGGGGG FUNNIEST THING IN THE WORRRRRRRLD. my sister called my mom and when she picked up she yelled WHASSSSSSSSSAP to my sister and so I grabbed the phone and laughed at claudia and she said that yesterday my dad left her a voicemail saying "hello claudia. this is father." HAHAHAHAHA I couldn't stop laughing. then went to shoppers while my mom went to the bank and then obviously my mom wanted to go to T&T. we bought asian bottled tea stuff (cause it was on sale) for my brother the tea loving fob. came home, did nothing, and then randomly wendy called! we talked for an hour which is sooooooooooo incredibly odd but so incredibly lovable. ate dinner, showered, watched ONEEEEEEE TREEEEEEEEE HILLLLLLLL. maaaaaaaaaaan I thought I would never cry as much as I did for the last episode but this episode was just as sad and I was bawling. it was sooooooo sad especially the whole thing with lucas and karen. or maybe I'm a huuuuuuuuge sap. AAAAAAAAAND today I watched my first episode of CSI. it was so intriguing and interesting and incredibly suspenseful. TODAY WAS FILLED WITH SOOOOOOOO MUCH RANDOMNESS. I blame spring.

stuck in a world no longer turning
always the girl waiting for something
too many days walking around sleeping
open my eyes
I'm tired of dreaming
sun on my face
lights of the city
maybe in love or just learning to be on my two feet
I can only imagine
I'll say the word and believe it'll happen
they think they know me but how can they know me?
I'm getting to know myself
I'm finally ready to be somebody with a story to tell
I wanna run with a reckless emotion
find out if love is the size of an ocean
even if I crash down and burn out at least I'm gunna know what it's like
I wanna feel until my heart breaks wide open
I wanna blaze like a fire that's growing
even if I crash down and burn out at least I'm gunna know what it's like to feel alive

music heals.

ps jake needs to come back before pete becomes a regular! THAT WOULD BE TOO WEIRD. can't wait for episode 18 =D LOVING NALEY

quiz thing

2006-03-22T03:04:53Z

borrrrrrrrred to death so I decided to hop on the bandwagon as I ignore my pile of calculus hw...
and I don't know how to do an lj cut so tough luck

taken from dorkkie
Step 1: Put your MP3 player or whatever on random.
Step 2: Post a line from the first 20 songs that play, no matter how embarrassing the song.
Step 3: Post and let everyone guess what song and artist the lines come from.
Step 4: Strike out the songs when someone guesses correctly.
Step 5: Looking them up on Google or any other search engine is CHEATING!

~~1. "You can tell me why I just don't fit in and how you're going to be something"~~
Punk Rock Princess - Something Corporate [jkot]

~~2. "I guess it's better you trapped yourself in your own way and if you want me back you're gonna have to ask"~~
Buried Myself Alive - The Used [himothy]

3. "If she could just feel what I feel here in my heart she'd know it was real; pure and true right from the start"

~~4. "You always dress in yellow when you wanna dress in gold instead of listening to your heart you do just what you're told"~~
Why Not - Hilary Duff [michelle]

5. "Maybe you think you're not right for me but you'll never be everything I need"

6. "Holding tight and trying not to hide how I feel cause feelings mean nothing"

7. "You stole my past I want it back don't let the door hit your ass" [good luck with this one HAHA]

8. "Hit me and knock me out and let me go back to sleep"

9. "But if you'll be there when I drown, I don't want to hold your hand"

10. "I gotta get away find something to do cause everything I hear, everything I see reminds me of you"

~~11. "So keep bleeding your fake blood until noone even sees it"~~
Give Up The Grudge - Gob [michelle]

~~12. "I guess it's no use I'm screwing up every little thing I ever tried to do; I'm born to lose"~~
God Must Hate Me - SP [michelle]

~~13. "It seems like everyone we know is breaking up; does anybody ever stay in love anymore?"~~
I Promise You - BSB [krista]

~~14. "I want you in my room then spend the night together from now until forever"~~
Boom Boom Boom - Vengaboys [michelle]

~~15. "Hello, good morning, how do you do?"~~
Learning To Breathe - Switchfoot [s0ulistic]

16. "Oh how we love you; no flaws when you're pretending" [how ironic lols]
Everybody's Fool - Evanescence [ryan]

~~17. "And it feels like I'm at an all time low"~~
Head-On Collision - NFG [jkot]

18. "I could just pick up the pieces but to you this means nothing, nothing at all"

~~19. "You're the only one who really knew me at all"~~
Against All Odds - Mariah Carey feat. Westlife [monicaaaa]

~~20. "And still I have the pain I have to carry; a past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried"~~
Blind - Lifehouse [michelle]

heidysfakelj @ 2006-03-12T23:11:00

2006-03-13T04:18:08Z

saturday was wessssssstern with mom, dad, and wendy
GOD I had to get up at 6am
funnnnnnnn day with wendy =)
my parents are so embarrassing..my dad brought home free cookies from western
pickle barrel for dinner
today was boarrrrrrrrrding with mat, claudia, annie, and janice
7am wake up call
THREE EARLY MORNINGS IN A ROWWWWW sooooooo exhausted
THERE WAS A HALF-PIPE but I couldn't figure out how to get on it =(
freaky random staring man
scary house-lookalike dude
keung's for dinner
careers and pasttimes
spaheffi and mstant noodles
bubble tea afterwards
good laughs with my family =D
love love love

I'm going to sleep for 38472398 years now.

heidysfakelj @ 2006-03-11T00:14:00

2006-03-11T05:16:34Z

today was soooo amaaaaaaaaazing
minus my contact lens breaking
minus carpenter's pissy mood
minus screwing up arban
minus disagreements with my mother
today was so amazing
it feels like nothing could bring me down
I love this feeling
hopefully it will stay longer than it did last time
march break looks promising now =)

thaaaanks so much you have no idea how much I appreciate you guys.
you know who you are...hopefully.

heidysfakelj @ 2006-03-07T22:32:00

2006-03-08T03:44:33Z

I thought I saw a man brought to life
he was warm, he came around like he was dignified
he showed me what it was to cry
well you couldn't be that man I adored
you don't seem to know, don't seem to care what your heart is for
but I don't know him anymore
there's nothing where he used to lie
my conversation has run dry
that's whats going on, nothing's fine I'm torn
I'm all out of faith, this is how I feel
I'm cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor
illusion never changed into something real
I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn
you're a little late, I'm already torn
so I guess the fortune teller's right
should have seen just what was there and not some holy light
but you crawled beneath my veins and now
I don't care, I have no luck, I don't miss it all that much
there's just so many things that I can't touch, I'm torn
I'm all out of faith, this is how I feel
I'm cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor
illusion never changed into something real
I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn
you're a little late, I'm already torn.
Torn.
there's nothing where he used to lie
my inspiration has run dry
that's what's going on, nothings right, I'm torn
I'm all out of faith, this is how I feel
I'm cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor
illusion never changed into something real
I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn
I'm all out of faith, this is how I feel
I'm cold and I'm ashamed bound and broken on the floor
you're a little late, I'm already torn

what would I do without music?
I wish music were a person.
a person that could put me back together.

heidysfakelj @ 2006-02-24T22:15:00

2006-02-25T03:23:39Z

feeling like craaaaaaaaaaaaaap.
thanks for the shopping trip wendy.
thanks for the cookie chong.
thanks for the talk sam.
I won't let myself cry over you anymore.
I'm done.

hit me and knock me out
and let me go back to sleep
I can't laugh
all I want inside I still am empty

heidysfakelj @ 2006-02-24T00:46:00

2006-02-24T05:37:31Z

added pictures to my entry about semi if you're interested.

lied. I took them down cause they were so gross.

semi formal 06: venus and mars

2006-02-20T01:07:15Z

friday
band in the morning was pointless cause we didn't even play slavonic studied for bio the whole time
calc was boring and I drifted in and out of sleep
bio was quiz and I did horrendous
lunch was formal sales with monica, ryan, and christine
physics was quiz that I actually think I did okay on. FORGOT TO PUT UNITS FOR IMPULSE THOUGH. fuck.
spare was hectic my mom was supposed to pick me up at 1:45 but she didn't come until 2:30 so I sat in the commons with matt, ryan, jessica, and fabian who signed out of discrete. fairview to pick up the cake then home to pack. got to cynthia's at 4ish and got ready. one tree hill, hair, dresses, makeup, silliness, and laughs = fun galore =) got ready and then sam and athena/diana picked us up for semi. EVERYBODY LOOKED SOOOOOOOO GOOD! we should have more dress up occassions! sat with wendy, jenny, katie, jk, darrell, diana, athena, iris, joanna and cynthia at table 10 (the ugly table right in front of the doors eww). I'll admit that at first I was so excited for semi but when we finally hit love week I really didn't want to go but I'm glad I did cause it was more fun than I thought it would be. thank god it wasn't a total waste of money. the DJ was pretty cool and I liked the tv show game. the sing along would have been more fun if i knew the words but it was pretty cool to see (almost) the whole room singing together. I know it sounds weird but it made me smile. the food wasn't bad the pasta and chicken were good but the brocoli was SPICY! the dessert was different and good but weird hahaha. danced with katie, jenny, athena, and diana and then sam and jk joined us! then there was like a minute where we were ALL somewhat dancing and it was so fun and made me smile. good laughs on the dance floor even though I'm not usually a fast-dancing kind of person. SAW ILINA FOR THE FIRST TIME IN FOREVER SINCE GRADE 8! she looks soooo pretty and so different but the same at the same time! took pictures and loitered after semi ended.

- ms dasko and mr humphrey hitting on ryan
- alex's bow and aaron's suspenders
- JENNY'S DRIVER'S LICENSE HAHAHAHA
- katie and diana's choreographed dancing
- athena and diana's not-so-choreographed dancing
- lumby at the bar HAHAHA
- athena forcing matt to dance
- the big bird dance
- slow dancing and singing with cynthia
- getting scott and ishi to dance with us! haahahaha
- adventure to the big bathroom with cynthia and wendy
- iris or diana with cynthia LOLS!
- katie running for our table
- choreographed leg swinging thing with jenny, wendy, cynthia, and katie LOLS
- JENNY'S HEEL!

first and last semi and I'm glad I decided to go this year =) thanks everybody for an AWESOME night.
maybe pictures later..

hitched a ride to cynthia's from sam (thanks!) with wendy, iris, and athena. had to stop off at destiny's cause athena needed bubble tea HAHAHAHA. everybody was looking at us funny cause I had the shortest thing on and it was freezing and athena looked extremely formal lols. when we got to cynthia's, ate the cake and showered. started a movie and taaaaaaalked until 3 or later. apparently I was the first one out HAHAHAHA oops. got up early cause athena had to leave and just talked some more. cynthia and her brother are so funny lols. went to market village for brunch and then walked around looking at dresses. back to cynthia's to talk some more. went through her collections of stuff and pictures and talked and talked and talked some more. I had an AWEEEEEEEESOME time thanks girlies! =) went home to drop off my stuff then went to stc with my mom and then tutoring afterwards. I was supposed to go out for dinner with cynthia and athena but they flopped so stayed home. watched OTH until 4am =/

today
woke up at 2 and ate lunch. did a bit of laundry and bummed around. alex called and we talked. told him all my problems and he makes the solutions sound so easy =/ I wish it were that easy =( anyway dinner afterwards and now here I am doing what I said I'd stop doing: updating my lj. did absolutely NO hw this weekend. no wondering I'm failing life =(

I don't know what to do. I'm so confused. somebody make my decisions for me so that everything can go back to normal. I'm so unbelievably bad at words. everything that I say and do feels and sounds so cliched to me. I wish I could just lay in bed all day curled up in my blanket...

you don't know what you do
everytime you walk into the room
I'm afraid to move
I'm just scared to know the ending
do you see me too?
do you even know you've met me?

heidysfakelj @ 2006-02-11T02:23:00

2006-02-11T07:23:58Z

can't remember wednesday so whatever.

thursday
spare - slept in
english - THE SECOND GRADER HAHAHAHA. talked about one of the characters and read scene 8.
lunch - formal sales and ESP meeting. thanks danielle for the muffin it was GOOD =) esp meeting was meh. lots of stuff coming up to look forward to =) haggerty is so funny lols. I wish I talked to him more when I had him for careers
music - same old same old
chem - lesson and then work period as usual. bathroom break and then went to the library to sign up for the ESP thing. met darrell on the way and talked for a bit. hope you feel better hon =). next time we'll walk together! went back to class and talked to sam, alex, athena, and iris the rest of the class. random chinapeople started writing chinese characters on the board LOLS
auto club - drawing dresses, washroom break, and eligible bachelors with monica. hahaha she's a funny one I miss her. learned about spark plugs and changing oil. tyler: "righty tighty lefty loosey" HAHAHAHAHA what a weirdo but I miss him too. I'm really beginning to love auto club because of all the people I get to reconnect with. spark plugs spark the plugs. the guy with the volkswagon. pimp dice. the pipe bender bends pipes. more athena moments. shark tooth. mr van den eyde. fully loving it =).
ride from athena (thanks!) and watched OTH! AWWWWWW episode 14 makes me so giddy. the whole beginning part with the girls is so cute and the taxicab driver and brooke's hair and the robot and the dipping and the tummy growl and the forehead leaning and AWWWWWWW.
tim hortons at 9 with athena and sam. good talks and good laughs thanks you guys. =)

friday
went to science centre with athena, cynthia, wendy, iris, and joanna. BODY WORLDS IS SOOOOOOOOOO COOL. too many penises though HAHAHA. the fetuses! awwww so sad =( explored the rest of the science centre and it was pretty fun lols. we were getting in line for the big bally thing that makes your hair stand up but then they shut down =( went for lunch at pizza hut and had the cheesey bites pizza thingy. it was GOOD. cynthia left us, athena had work and the rest of us came to my house. tried on dresses, shoes, curled hair, and watch OTH. gooooood times =) dinner, showered and then will and athena picked me up for dessert. went to demetre and the ice cream was SOOOOOO GOOD. the apple pie was really good too but got cold really fast =( went to destiny's afterwards for bubble tea. ended up getting takeout and driving home. singing, laughing, and catching up. thanks for the awesome night you guys =) I've never had so much fun singing off key and watching will attempt to dance LOLS. MARCH BREAK FOR SURE WILL. promise =D. and thanks for the talk wendy =)

getting a new phone tomorrow.

PS fuck you =)

heidysfakelj @ 2006-02-04T18:02:00

2006-02-04T23:41:52Z

HILARIE BURTON IS IN JACK'S MANNEQUIN'S VIDEO FOR THE MIXED TAPE! cooooool =) it's so OTH-ish I love it...

so today I got woken up by my brother making a lot of noise just to get a towel at 1. just us so we ordered pizza and then I did laundry. watched will&grace, that 70s show, and OTH. finished reading the fanfic and it's SOO SAD. I bawled like a baby...can't wait for an update. now time to start another one =) hahaha. dinner later with the extended family for chinese new year..can't wait =)

yesterday...
band in the morning. came home during spare and watched one tree hill..man that episode was SO HOT and MEGA CUTE. how he remembers all those little things and how he won't let her go to duke cause he's going to stanford for her and the newspaper articles and the makeout scene and how he knows what she's thinking even though his eyes are closed and hanging the newspaper articles to dry and oh man I want a nathan! hahaha... anyway english was quiz (that I know I failed =/) and then more reading of streetcar named desire. calvin was stella and he and vinson had a heated scene LOLS. lunch was pay for semi and then music room to practise for testing. I did fine and had good times laughing with cynthia and athena again. chem was hand in labs and short lesson. "work period" and I actually did my work this time! =) it was like 5 simple questions so everybody finished really early. had a little talk with iris and athena. hope you figured things out iris... then alan showed athena that magic trick with the jacks, queens, kings, and aces and she was so amazed HAHAHA and then kelley joined us even though he had a class LOLS. ben showed us two WICKED magic tricks though oh god I am so amazed. and then kelley did a really stupid "magic trick" on athena and she was stunned HAHAHAHAHA loser. stood around the music wing after school with wendy, sam, and simon. talked about random things until they left for yearbook. got picked up and wendy and I went to markville to shop for prom dresses. no luck. back to my house so she could try on my sister's dress for semi. watched OTH and TRL clips and then she had to leave. dinner, shower, then msn. my siblings were watching second season of OTH and they were doubled over with laughter. I think the show is funny but MAN they were DYING..that's my family for you LOLS.

thank you wendy for an awesome time shopping even though we didn't get anything and for being there for me.
thank you sam for talking to me and understanding how I feel.
thank you chong for comforting me and making me laugh.
I don't know what I would do without you guys...

I'm awake in the afternoon
I fell asleep in the living room
and it's one of those moments
when everything is so clear
before the truth goes back into hiding
I want to decide cause it's worth deciding
to work on finding something more than this fear

it takes so much out of me to pretend
tell me now, tell me how to make amends

maybe, I need to see the daylight
to leave behind this half-life
don't you see I'm breaking down
lately, something here don't feel right
this is just a half-life
is there really no escape
no escape from time
of any kind

I keep trying to understand
this thing and that thing, my fellow man
I guess I'll let you know
when i figure it out
but I don't mind a few mysteries
they can stay that way it's fine by me
but you are another mystery I am missing

[edit] dinner was awesome at buffet king. william is so jokes with the whole conversation on how loud our family is "we going to HAVE to yell at each other because we won't be able to hear" and my sister made the ONE baby that NEVER cries, cry and we got a picture of it. it's a picture of her trying to kiss him and he's crying HAHAHAHAHA. and then there was that whole red pocket thing with aaron LOLS...
mat: you want it?
aaron: YES!
mat: that almost looks dirty..
aaron: *turns to raymond* I know you want it..
raymond: I HAVE one!
HAHAHAHAHA...and then I basically spent the rest of the night with all the babies. awww they're so cute I love them! faith fell on top of megan and I know it probably hurt but it was funny and they laughed too hahaha. and joseph is SO ADORABLE when he laughs but he's psychic and won't let us take pictures of him smiling =( and chloe looked like a baby version of ms swan from..that show I can't remember what it's called but LOLS it was hilarious. and we had this whole routine with her where she walked back and forth between us and AWWWW it was just the cutest thing. and we also watched this clip on lena's camera where they're trying to get joseph to roll over (what is he, a DOG?!) but he wouldn't do it cause there was a camera so anna picks him up and rolls him over herself HHAHAHAHA it was the funniest thing. and when they tried to get him to lie down on the mat, he was in a sitting position and jason picked him up and put him on his back but his legs stayed up in the air HAHAHA...okay that's enough rambles about the babies in my family but they're just so cute! I smelt like baby after too..I LOOOOOVE that smell. OOHHH and when we were leaving, my mom was asking chloe if she wanted to come home with me since I love her so much and she nodded like crazy AWWWW. okay enough. maybe I'll post pictures later. =D

Happy Birthday Michael! =)

2006-01-28T07:43:46Z

eaton centreeeeeeeeeee
got birthday gifts and shoppppppped
sam and matt bought NIIIIIICE dress shirts for semi and wendy and I got......popcorn
walked along yonge and then along queen
visited winter city festival for a bit too

the random person on the bus
"which side do you think the next one will come from?"
wendy's bag flying into the rack
BANANA REPUBLIC HAHAHAHAHA
sears mannequins
stationary clip things
old navy
orange coat, underwear, gloves, and accessories at H&M
"what do you think they sell?"
"the far back" in steve's

bussed home then out for family dinner
I was in such a crappy mood but somehow my siblings made me happy
alison is the weirdest kid I know
went to T&T after dinner and went mad grocery shopping
you won't BELIEVE how many chinese people shop from 10pm-12am

hollywood = askldjfslkdf
"can you listen?"
hollaback girl
o canada
unknown christmas carol
bread game
"ashley's my girl"
covering claudia's mouth
giving mat the hand
london, africa, scandanavia
"think of something to rhyme with london. I have tokyo already...ETHIOPIA"
name that song
wake up

awesome day with family and friends =) I can't believe it's january...I'm too relaxed now that exams are over. I want summer

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CYNTHIA! =)

2006-01-27T02:58:05Z

I'M FREEEEEEEEEEEEEE! finally. ahhhhhhhh I feel so relaxed now. it feels like a saturday hahaha.

went to stc today with bernice and lee-ann after physics.
got a new sweater ($20 at RW&co!!!!)
good laughs, good friends, good day =)

tomorrow is eaton centre for yep you guessed it HOLLISTER! =D yeeeyeeeeeeah I'm so excited. I stumbled upon it when I went to the states in july and I fell in love. the store was soo cute and my sister said it looks the same so ahh! maybe I'll be a tourist and take a picture with it tomorrow (I'm kidding)

sam: "if you hear somebody crying, that's me."
wendy: " oh yeah totally. you don't have to tell me twice. well, this is my life goal: to seduce james (successfully) or well, even better, is if he comes to me instead, and professes his love. for me"
and of course the little girl surfing on the movator HAHAHAHAHAHA.
sorry that was random.

downloading 12th episode of one tree hill :D AHHHHHHHHHHHH hurry up hurry up hurry uppppppp.

LOOOOOOVING THIS SONG =)

2006-01-15T06:25:29Z

had the best conversation today. it was so refreshing, calming, relieving and honest. there was so much truth to everything even if we knew the other wouldn't want to hear it. so happy there's at least one person I can count on to tell me the truth. it's been soooooo hard for me to truly trust anybody lately so thanks so much. thanks for understanding and for caring and for being there for me. =)

merry christmas everybody! =)

2005-12-25T20:27:01Z

CONGRATULATIONS IRIS AND AMANDA!
woke up at 8 today to go see Iris get baptized. got home around 1, opened my presents, ate lunch, and watched a cheesy christmas movie on the family channel LOLS. going out for all you can eat sushi with my family later. mmmmm =D. anyway here's what I got...

Simple Plan's MTV Hard Rock Live CD from my secret santa Jestyn
One Tree Hill Season Two DVD set from my brother and sister
Clodhoppers from Kelly
a Roxy t-shirt from Kelly and Jessica
a poster (of I don't know what YET) from Michelle
mittens and a straightening brush thing from my parents
candy from Jenn Chi
a card from Kelly, Jessica, Helen, Jessica Wu, Simon, Iris, and Alex Chong

THANKS SO MUCH EVERYBODY! =) thanksssss to my extraordinarily wonderful friends for friday night, thaaaaaanks to my super mega crazy wacky awesome family for saturday, and thankssss to everybody for the warm christmas wishes.

MERRRRRRRRRRRRRRY CHRISTMAS! =D

christmas eve!

2005-12-25T03:35:50Z

bussed to eaton centre with Mat and Claudia at like 1pm. met up with their boyfriend and girlfriend =( I was the fifth wheel. shopped for the parentals and bought Mat his michael jordan book. bussed back up and dad picked us up at don mills. drove to my cousin's house for christmas potluck. goooooooood times =) except we're randomly home early this year. watching love actually with my sister later.

-"ooooooooooooooooo!" everytime the phone rang
-"I read magazines when I'm in line. I'M UPDATED."
-Claudia on the subway
-"no it's okay I had like A BAG already. WAIT. THEY'RE STUFFED?"
-"OMG WHERE DID YOU GET THAT?" brandon runs to get one and thomas calmly walks to get one HAHAHA
-the carebears
-the elmo
-"whatever they say, just say WOW."
-"WOW! okay go put this on the tree. that will take you a while."
-"HI MEGAN!" (not megan)
-"no tapioca?! WORST CHRISTMAS EVER!"
-"that's my girl" / "no that's MY girl" / "he was talking about annie" / "oh."

I love family dinners. they always make me laugh and feel loved. it doesn't feel like christmas though...

heidysfakelj @ 2005-12-24T01:59:00

2005-12-24T07:25:09Z

todaaaaaay was a long and eventful day.
english until LATE and I couldn't wake up for band. oops.
LEARNED in calc. ewww how gross.
bio isu multiple choice test back. did okay for somebody who didn't read the sections =/.
physics was fun as usual. went on a field trip to robotics with alex, helen, byron, and others. darby told us about his college days and his ski trip! awww. helen's weird dancing. helen's weird arm gestures. telling darby about helen's drinking problem. OLGA! HAHAHAHAHAHA.
went to science office during spare. struggled with getting the cake onto a plate with ishi. spent rest of the spare trying to get kelly to come out of bio. failed.
lots of stupid aggravating things happened in between but finally ended up at pho's with wendy, kelly, and jessica.
talent show was cool. dim sum girl haha. "I know her!". JASON TONG. great job everybody! congrats to The Heat for first place and to others for a job well done.
lunch plans with the guys failed so got a ride from iris's mom to stc with iris, jo, and wendy (CYNTHIA YOU BIG STINKY DITCHER). shoppppppped. bought a shirt! YEYEAH 10 dollars. bussed to pacific with iris and bought a ring =) BEAUTIFUL. JWAIHC. dinner at 6:30 with secret santa people at boston pizza. iris struggles with bathroom stalls. michael struggles with wrapping. saw emily and karain! awww I miss them dearly. got a ride to darrell's from iris (again! SORRRRRY AND THANKS!) waited for everybody to arrive and exchanged gifts. many laughs and good times. our secret santa was sooo good this year! it actually went in a complete circle! =) (Julian -> Sam -> Kevin -> Amanda -> Joanna -> Jestyn -> Heidy -> Janny -> Michelle -> Katie -> Matthew -> Michael -> Fabian- > Cynthia -> Wendy -> Alex -> Jenny -> Iris -> Darrell -> Simon -> Ryan -> Athena -> back to Julian) THANKS SO MUCH SECRET SANTA (JESTYN) FOR MY PRESENT! I LOVEEEEEEEEE IT =D played mah jong, jitz, and with darrell's eyetoy. got home at 12:30ish. the end.

so not what I was hoping for...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BERNICE! =)

2005-12-22T22:49:01Z

yesterday bussed to eaton centre with athena after school. shopped like CRAAAAAAAZY. the swarovski christmas tree is SOOOOOOOOOOOOO beautiful! I WANT IT. bussed back up at 9ish and met my brother at fairview. went to dominion's so athena could get chocolate. ICE CREAM IS $2! made two cakes for today, showerrrrrred, wrapped presents, and in bed by 2:30. phew.

today was jooookes. during chem, wandered around the school with sam talking. watched people practicing for talent show for a bit then went back to chem. played pig and slap jack with alex, alan, iris, kevin, sam, michelle, and jennifer. lumby ran away from us cause we were so loud lols. good class! after school, watched talent show rehearsal with Kelly, Jess, Daniella, Athena, Ryan, Symphony, and Samantha Chung. the two weird guys. cookie muffin brownie thing. EMILY CAME! awwww tear I miss her so much. tonight my brother and his friends are having a potluck. mmmm food! muahaha.

cyn - WE CAN PLAY! *does a wave with her body*
iris - ow ow OWWY
athena - do you know what gullible means? / yeah..but it's not a BANANA!
and the highlight of my day: alex fell off his chair when he got excited HAHAHAHAHAHAHA